today wasn't horrible

Hi all. I'm procrastinating from my homework. I'm soooo excited, I got something right AGAIN in class! Whoohoo!! These wheels are rusty, but starting to turn again! :-)

Class was pretty crazy. Holy crap! We spent 45 minutes on 1 problem!! Can you imagine what my stupid homework looks like if a guy with a PhD in Physics spent 4 hours on one problem!! Hehe! That's ok... I'm just trudging through it! :-) We have our first test on Monday, so I'm hoping that I'll be able to get all my homework done before Friday's class so I can check it with my classmates. We have a whopping 6 people in our class now!! WOOHOO! :-)

Today is a sad-ish day. It's a day that changed and didn't change Younger's life. Today at 4:23 AM, when she was 15, she gave birth to a 5 month old still-born baby boy. :-( It was about 2 weeks of appts and craziness (her mom bowed out of the process and told me if I didn't take care of her, then no one was going to) and my first couple weeks of hanging out with Younger. We got relatively personal very quickly. I got her tests coordinated, ultrasounds, everything... only to find out in the end he was still born. Well, we found out a week before they induced labor. So, today, 3 years ago, my youngest had a baby boy. It's a rough day for her every year, especially since she's been through so much. In fact, she's calling me now so I can check in with her.

hold one!

Well, she's doing ok. She realized the actual purpose of my call. I didn't bring it up because I was waiting for her too IF she wanted to. She finally said... OH! You called because today's the 9th. I said, yes. Then she told me that she got up this morning, pulled the ultrasound and baby blanket out, cried for a while and then took a break. After that, she busied herself all day! WOOHOO!! What a great reaction. I'm sooo proud of her! Before, when she stressed, she'd do drugs or drink or drugs more. Good for her! :-) She did a good thing for herself today. :-) The 1st and 2nd Anniversary she was in the Program we sent her to, so we knew she wasn't being destructive to herself. This year, I was holding my breath and praying.

Anyway, I finally found my calc book. I had a pretty good day. My hubby and I got about an hour together tonight which has been rare with the school thing. All in all, my girls are safe, sober, and happy/working on being happy, and I have a great (albeit disfunctional) family. :-) With all the crap, I'm still grateful for all the good times and the times together. Till later!

Thanks for reading!